Times flies, my study leave has been half month, and well...it's so boring and dry! i need some entertainment. Have kept telling myself to find sth to learn such as dance and keyboard, but saying is always easier than putting it into action. sincerely hope that I can really do it after the exam!

I chose this path, and yet i am struggling now. life is sad and tough!:(
Return to PwC as AA1 is just so different, tasks assigned are much more challenging, and as usual, you will never really fully understand what you are doing. i start to wonder if i have made the right decision in the beginning.

you will only excel in your work if you choose a job which you like to do and a job you have passion in it. Obviously i know i dontt really have passion in this line, what i need is just the NAME of the PwC, and a refined resume. But what i am going through make me hesitate if it is all worth it for me to sacrifice so many things in life. Its just the begining, and yet i find it so hard to hang on....the workload just makes me breathless and drained! I NEED A BREAK!:'(

dad likes to pick on me recently, whatever things I do , he will just say sth to me in a not very nice tone. 22 years old alrdy, i dont know when will be the right time to get the key of freedom. they always say i am not independent enough, i am childish, i am immature, fair enough. however, i think partly is oso becoz they are too protective towards certain things. I just couldnt talk to them nicely recently, hard to control my emotion, the moment i was nagged, fire is started up inside and will just talk back whatever comes to my mind.

yeah, it's kinda contradicting that today's a lucky and unlucky day for me.

guess what, i was caught eating bread during working time by my jap manager! how suay it is!
but seriously i was extremely hungry till i think i am going to faint, i felt super giddy with an empty stomach.

right after get caught, the manager let me go for break=) bought myself YTF at wisma, i am contented:p

before i go home, the manager still gave me a big packet of chocolate wassant!!!!(it's very ex and popular in the shop)how nice she is...( thought she's quite naggy and strict)
i am thankful for that!hahahaha!

it is now 6.12 am , it's so abnormal that i woke up at this hour.
in fact, i was actually woke up at 4 plus coz of the itch all over my body.
it made me so irritated and helpless...:(
i am very tired and sleepy, but i just cant sleep coz of it.


i need sleeeeeeeep!:(

i am so irritated by the illness i am having now!
my entire body is itchy like hell...
it's really a pain...:(

thought it has been almost a week since what happened last weeked, i still want to blog about it to vent my unhappiness out!

last weekend, i went to a taiwanese gathering with Janet. supposed to be a-still-ok gathering. however, an uncle's appearence totally spoiled my mood!!!

it's a round dining table, the uncle just sit next to me, followed by his sons and wife. as he has just been here for around 1 year, so it's normal if he would like to find out more about singapore.
therefore, a question was thrown to us.

uncle: is the pay in singapore higher as compare to taiwan?
Enci: i think xxxxx.....
(he then cut in half way)
uncle: you are student right?! i think you have no voice in this issue!

WELL, THAT'S A VERY GOOD COMMENT HE GAVE! i smiled awkwardly and continued eating. i enjoyed my food apparently, the truth is, i was seething with rage internally!!!!!!!

seriously, although i am a student, doesnt mean that i have no right to speak out! to give comment on something what i think is correct! if i was still a sec student today, i might not be so angry coz what i know would be much more limited.

the thing is i am now 20 years old already, and i have been here for 7 or 8 years plus, i belived that i am much more familiar with the market in sg than he does even though he is an adult!!!!

so uncle, please update urself to acknowledge that students do read newspapers other than mugging. students do have the right and remarkable opinions.